Discovery Channel

So I am watching Discovery Channel, and it is about someone who is trying to kill his wife from behind bars. Holy shit, this is so crazy. I want to hurry and end this shift I have so that I may get to showering. Actually, I just want to masturbate. Anyways, I noticed that my favorite belt is too big for me now. I must make another hole in the belt on the inside. I think I am doing good. I am now at 175, which is amazing. I came from 210lbs this semester. I plan on continuing this good habit I developed. I need to start working on cardio and muscles. Basically everything. But mainly cardio because I would like to do good in Ultimate.

I feel like the apartment is crumbling. There is less communication than there was. I feel like it is just 4 people living together and not 4 friends. Maybe I am just looking at it in a different light. It wouldn't be the first. I will somehow try to stop this. I shall make food for everybody tomorrow. I feel like that should help. I am disappointed in the fact that my advice or comments fall on deaf ears. Less appreciated. But I am strong and I know that that is not the case. And even if that is, I know how to deal with it. I came from a family that hardly paid attention to me and still doesn't, unless there is a problem. I am more independent that I could even imagine and sometimes I surprise myself.

I made a 62 on my Economics test.....again. I hate that class so bad. Everything just flies over my head. It is nothing but theories and no hardcore facts and figures. All just depends. It is so hard to grasp my head around that but I will still try as hard as I can on this last test. I need, no fuck that, I NEEEEEEEED to pass this class. It will hold me back if I do not. I know I can do it. I know I can. This semester is so crappy. Hopefully next semester will be better. I am taking Operations Management, and I heard that it is another math course basically and I am so excited. I think I should be a math teacher. I have always loved math and will always love math. I mean shit, it makes life so much easier.

So I want to ask somebody out but I am scared of their response. I will ask anyway, because if I am not living with my heart on my sleeves there is no reason to even be human and no reason to exist. I sometimes wish people could be more accepting of the feelings they have and to be more mature. I know it is a lot to ask for but I mean hey, It will help everybody if one were better in tuned with emotions and verbal communication. Still looking for that someone I guess, maybe I should stop looking because everything seems to find you when you are not looking for it.

The Hockey game I went to was good. A fucking FCA member was cockblocking the whole time. Damnit. I know you can want any poonani till you are married but that doesn't mean I want to wait with you. SHIT. I mean can't you let a nigga get his dick wet. Hahahahhaahhahahahaha. OH man I is trill. No but true story. I think I should be the sequel to Hyperbole and a Half. I say that sounds good.

I shall talk to you later when I have more time. I am at work also and it is fucking cold outside. I saw my breath, so that means that it is WINTER officially. HELL YES. Alright later niggas.

One of the New Posts

So I am sitting here at Ragsdale doing nothing but writing and waiting for the damn Hockey excursion to hurry and take place. I am excited to be going, even though none of my friends are going. I feel like that is an accomplishment, I am being more independent and I did not even think about not going for that reason. I thought about it because I have a test and 2 presentations due tomorrow, but I decided that I should have some me time. Although there has been a lot of that lately. I completed my 20 in 4 challenge and it was intense. Also I have been more selfish, which is not a good thing but I am forced to do so because nobody else knows the amount of energy I put into something for everybody to only get a 'thanks'. I do appreciate when you appreciate but I would also like some action. I know actions speak louder than words and it goes a long way with me. I would also like it for next semester to hurry da fuck up and get here because I do not want to be in these damn classes anymore it is just wasting my time when all I do is learn nothing in the class that I am supposed to be learning something in. Anyways, I have taken up another interest in life and she has a name that begins with the letter R. I want to pursue and make something happen with it because I know there is a connection. Failblog.org is the best site. I visit it all the time. There is some days where I do not go to it because I like finding new things posted. I need to go and actually check it out right now because I am craving for it. See you later fools.

Time

Some time has passed since I have written but I assure you I will write as soon as I have more time to write. 18 hours is such a workload and I have not been up to my game this semester so next semester, with another 18 hour workload, I will manage better. I shall let you know what is happening soon. I shall keep a running list of what is going on so I can have an extra long blog that shall need to be split up like the Harry Potter movie. Later people.

Irony and Fate Go Hand-IN-Hand

The title has nothing to do with what I am about to say but I did not know what else to put. Anyways, the other day I was sitting at my computer, after taking a shower, quickly checking my Facebook when Evan walked in. I would first like to say that when I am about to go to sleep I put chonies on and have an undershirt and v neck, that is all. I was lazy to get fully dressed, so I put on the undershirt and half way put on the boxers and just sat at the computer. So boxers down, Evan opens my door and walks in to me sitting dick out typing on the computer with Facebook up. To him it looked like I was going to jack-off, but really it was not that. I was just lazy. The funny thing about it was that I talked to him and he talked back to me as if nothing was out of the ordinary. But kudos to him for taking the movie I rented for the both of us back. I also was taking a shower another day, I take more than one shower a week just so that you know, I was drying off when Jacob opened the door and just stayed there with the door open. I asked what he wanted and nothing. It was weird. This is not to make him sound like a creep, but it was just weird. But whatever, it was something to tell the blog. Anyways, moral of the story is don't count your chickens before they hatch. We also lost our first volleyball match. It was hard on the team. But I mean when I speak about something, I am not just saying it because I like to practice the use of the English language. I expect it to be heard, I expect it to be listened to, and I expect it to be recognized. It only hurts everybody else when one does not listen. I exchanged some messages and I believe we will come back even stronger than ever. We have to have bad to know what is good. I am confused about what I want in life at the moment. I would like a relationship and I have heard that almost always the girl is waiting for the guy to make the first move. I do not like that idea, but I guess I will have to make the exception and go for it. The one problem is that there are a couple of ladies that have caught my eye. Do I make the first move on all of them and hope for at least one? But what happens when more than one says yes? I do not want to become that douchebag that plays girls. That is not the thing I am going for nor will it ever be the thing I am going for. I am just so confused. And what started this thinking process was the season finale of The Hard Times of RJ Berger. I literally did not know what to think. It was a shock to me. So many emotions rushed at me all at once that I sat there with my hands over my mouth. Then I started to cycle through the emotions one by one. It was, I must say, a hot mess. I do like knowing that I can feel though. I am not afraid to show what I feel, and I just need to work on expressing it to others in a way that has no bias. I have been listening to The Backin Up Song like it was my job. It is just a funny song that makes me want to sing it. I feel like I am not doing my best with these posts. I am not adding as much content like I want to. I shall fix that. I am also biting off more than I can chew but I am going to man up and mow this shit down. How are you going to become better at something when you do not challenge yourself? I would like to tell everybody that the Tosh Tour was awesome and funny as fuck. You need to see it. I still have not figured out what I am going to get Jacob for his birthday. I have got Jordan's and that is done (Tosh Tickets) but Jacob is a tough cookie to know. Time to sit down in the thinking chair and think. Think. Thiiiiiiiiiiiink. Because when I use my mind and take a step at a time. I can do anything.......that I want to do. I need to practice spiking. Happy note is that I would like to learn the Around the World dance. Anybody want to flash dance? That shit would be awesome. Time to depart. Later.

I Have Jean Grey Powers

So I have not written in this like I said I would and so I ask of you to forgive me. Anyways, change of subject, Tomorrow will be our first game in Intramural Volleyball. I know we have the ingredients to win but let us see how we put them together. Oh and I have been keeping real good track of my expenses. I am doing them in preparation of my life. I am going to be an accountant so might as well start early. I GOT MYSELF A COLMUNAR PAD and I have been recording my deposits and purchases. I am not getting the same thing the bank is giving me but I have a purchase that they do not. I do not know why but I do. So hopefully they just look over that and totally forget that. I am also getting really tired easily. Maybe it is just today seeing as I was drinking last night. I think so. Next topic, I took Jordan to go see Daniel Tosh for his birthday. It was an early birthday present and I actually do not care if he liked it because I fucking loved it. But I know he liked it also so that makes me like it even more. Just knowing I did something cool for somebody else makes me feel good. It is great timing because I have been in a funk these last couple of days. I am also listening to cues and they make me happy but you know what doesn't? Don't answer, rhetorical question, it is HOMEWORK. I have a lot, no, an amount that would be less if I were not procrastinating. I am just going to admit it right now. I am not as organized and neat like I want to be. I try, and I think I am doing really well for trying. So suck on that AMERICA. I have been peeing a shit ton (awesome diction, right?) and it feels weird. Now I know what my grandma feels like when she gets up in the middle of the night to pee. Oh how I learn so quickly. But anyways, I would love to stay and chat a little more but. OH shit wait. I totally am learning Italian. And I am doing it through Rosetta Stone and Mango. It is so cool. I cannot wait to be proficient in multiple languages. I really do want to learn like 3 languages other than English and probably it is going to be more. I also heard some Arabic superstitions. Apparently it is bad luck for a shoe to have its sole pointing towards the ground (upside-down). And if a girl passes over somebody else like crawls over them, while she is on her period, then it will stunt your growth. Oh and some colloquialisms too. One is "I hope your vagina eats you" and "shit on you". Funny. Anyways, gots to pee. Later.

I Pinky Promise.

I have not updated this thing in such a long time that I feel like I am making you disappointed. Well I do not like that. I do not like that at all. I am going to change my ways and at least update once a week. It is probably going to be on Sundays. Speaking about Sundays, We (meaning Evan, Chloe, Jordan, Chanel, Karla, Elyse and I) start playing our volleyball season this Sunday. I am excited. I have asked for help from multiple St. Edward's volleyball players and have yet to receive their services. Maybe it is because they are safe guarded secrets, or maybe because they think I am creepy. I do not know but I would like to believe that it is the first. I do not know if we are ready for it. I think we are but with that change of court, anything can happen. I know for sure, I need to work on my serves. Anyways, I have visited Jardin a couple of times at work and she is really starting to show her true colors to me and I like it. I also had a heart-to-heart with Celeste and it was great. I do believe we are closer now. I also have been seeing Magie a lot, more than usual but I am not complaining. There is so much school stuff to do that I do feel overwhelmed sometimes. But I put myself in this mess and I am going to get myself out. I feel like this is not going to be my best semester academically but it is going to be the one that I have done the most...so far. I really want for Courtney to come visit during the month of March because it is going to be my birthday and it is going to be Spring Break for her and me as well. Something that I am pursuing but failing miserably at is love. I want to find that right person but I cannot find the one that wants me also. Maybe I am putting too much thought into it but sometimes I do not feel loved. Sometimes I do sit and think about the event that I might not meet that someone and I will be lonely forever. A perpetual virgin. I am not going to lie, but I do sometimes get teary eyed thinking about this. I will admit that, but I know that I have friends that will support me and that one day I might meet that person. I am just so tired of waiting and pursuing only to come up on a cold trail. So how about I make this a personal invitation, If you like me, tell me straight to my face. I am not good with hints if they include me in the equation. I can tell if it is for other people, but not for me. So, more than physically, this semester has been emotionally draining. Enough about my feelings, which should be important to you. Damn how is this post the most dramatic shit ever. I have not posted anything in a while and when I do it is some sort of pity-party-debbie-downer shit. Oh god. Oh well. So like I said somewhere before, Life will find a way.

I took that from Jurassic Park because I fuckin' love that movie. I have also listened to Natasha Beddingfield's Touch a lot and it gives me goosebumps everytime because of the way everything is connected. Eerie but awesome. How about I make the next post less sad whilst entertaining you with some hilarious moment in life that I have experienced.

I will see you later. I pinky promise.

It Is That Time Of Year Again

School has started and I already had a project and quiz and goo gobs of reading to do. Da Fuck is up with that? I don't know. Maybe it is because a smart guy decided to take 18 hours. I am going to be drained. I also moved in, ya know, I realized my brain most of the time does not work in sequential order and it confuses people. So if you if you sometimes do not understand then I really don't care. These entries are the ramblings of my brain and they will be however they please. Next topic.
Oh, went to a Round Rock Express game on Tuesday or something like that and got so many coupons to Taco Bueno and other coupons to other places. So random but hey, that is some free food and I am always thankful for that. I am also waiting for a refund check so that I can pay some bills and save some for the future bills. My check from My Generation has still not come in yet and it is pissing me off because this shit was done 5 days shy of a month ago. So fuck a nigga named EMS payroll. Oh and with that refund check, I am going to buy some shoes and possibly a Fleshlight. Sounds reasonable. Oh shit. I forgot about this drunk lady at the RRE game.
So, Evan, Jordan and I were sitting in the grassy knoll by the right fielder. Above us was a side walk and then a pool with some tables and that is where she was. She was sitting there all angel like not really but I just describe that way because she made my night, no lie. Anyways, her way of working was just to yell at the right fielder but by calling them by their number. So RRE RF's number was 25 the opposing Redhawks was 24. RRE was on the field and so she yelled, "Twenty, five. HEY NUMBER TWENTY FIVE. Hey twenty five." He was not looking up because he thought it was a trap. I don't know for sure but that is what I would think if I was in his place. "TWENTY FIVE". No answer. Then 3 outs and the other team is out on the field. Here comes 24. "HEY NUMBER TWENTY FOUR. Twenty FOUR. HEY TWENTY FOUR." He was not as smart and so he looked slightly back. "HEY TWENTY FOUR.....YOU SUCK!" Then he fully turned back and just waved it off with the same reaction that one would do if some one was waving 'hello' to them. A man sitting next to the angel chimed in, " YEAH LOOK UP HERE. YOU SUCK." Then the angel, "TWENTY FOUR. Hey twenty four." The man has learned his lesson and he did not look or even glance back again. Then silence for about 5 mins. "VEINTE CUATRO!" Oh shit that made me laugh so hard. I don't know what was going through her head but it was probably something like this: Let me see, he now is not going to respond to anything I am saying to him in English. OH. Let me see if by me yelling out in Spanish he will not recognize that it is me and he will turn around and I can verbally rape him again. I believe that was her thinking. OOOOOOORRRRRR. It probably was not and it was the beer talking. Either way I was laughing for 2 minutes straight because of that. Thank you random drunk angel. THANK YOU.
I finally got Rosetta Stone for Spanish and Italian and I am so excited. Like so excited I have not even started it. OH YEAH. I have homework to be doing and I need to contact these St. Edward's niggas about the on campus jobs because I applied and I have work study and I need this shit. NO JOKE. If they want me to die then they should go ahead and just shoot me. Did you know that a recurring nightmare I have had is about some random thug or somebody who has a gun and is shooting at me and is never running out of bullets. For some reason, a gun is scarier to me than a knife. I have said more than enough to keep you busy for 2 or 3 minutes so I shall leave you with a sense that I can see what you are doing at all times. I have ESP I think and it is really acting up ever since I got back on campus. Maybe a sign of something to come. I don't know. Maybe I should ask That's So Raven for some guidance. Alright, Later.


And RESIDENT EVIL: AFTERLIFE IS COMING OUT SOON. I JUST WANT TO BLOW A LOAD RIGHT NOW BY JUST TALKING ABOUT IT. UH, DONE......LATER.