I have not updated this thing in such a long time that I feel like I am making you disappointed. Well I do not like that. I do not like that at all. I am going to change my ways and at least update once a week. It is probably going to be on Sundays. Speaking about Sundays, We (meaning Evan, Chloe, Jordan, Chanel, Karla, Elyse and I) start playing our volleyball season this Sunday. I am excited. I have asked for help from multiple St. Edward's volleyball players and have yet to receive their services. Maybe it is because they are safe guarded secrets, or maybe because they think I am creepy. I do not know but I would like to believe that it is the first. I do not know if we are ready for it. I think we are but with that change of court, anything can happen. I know for sure, I need to work on my serves. Anyways, I have visited Jardin a couple of times at work and she is really starting to show her true colors to me and I like it. I also had a heart-to-heart with Celeste and it was great. I do believe we are closer now. I also have been seeing Magie a lot, more than usual but I am not complaining. There is so much school stuff to do that I do feel overwhelmed sometimes. But I put myself in this mess and I am going to get myself out. I feel like this is not going to be my best semester academically but it is going to be the one that I have done the most...so far. I really want for Courtney to come visit during the month of March because it is going to be my birthday and it is going to be Spring Break for her and me as well. Something that I am pursuing but failing miserably at is love. I want to find that right person but I cannot find the one that wants me also. Maybe I am putting too much thought into it but sometimes I do not feel loved. Sometimes I do sit and think about the event that I might not meet that someone and I will be lonely forever. A perpetual virgin. I am not going to lie, but I do sometimes get teary eyed thinking about this. I will admit that, but I know that I have friends that will support me and that one day I might meet that person. I am just so tired of waiting and pursuing only to come up on a cold trail. So how about I make this a personal invitation, If you like me, tell me straight to my face. I am not good with hints if they include me in the equation. I can tell if it is for other people, but not for me. So, more than physically, this semester has been emotionally draining. Enough about my feelings, which should be important to you. Damn how is this post the most dramatic shit ever. I have not posted anything in a while and when I do it is some sort of pity-party-debbie-downer shit. Oh god. Oh well. So like I said somewhere before, Life will find a way.
I took that from Jurassic Park because I fuckin' love that movie. I have also listened to Natasha Beddingfield's Touch a lot and it gives me goosebumps everytime because of the way everything is connected. Eerie but awesome. How about I make the next post less sad whilst entertaining you with some hilarious moment in life that I have experienced.
I will see you later. I pinky promise.