Discovery Channel

So I am watching Discovery Channel, and it is about someone who is trying to kill his wife from behind bars. Holy shit, this is so crazy. I want to hurry and end this shift I have so that I may get to showering. Actually, I just want to masturbate. Anyways, I noticed that my favorite belt is too big for me now. I must make another hole in the belt on the inside. I think I am doing good. I am now at 175, which is amazing. I came from 210lbs this semester. I plan on continuing this good habit I developed. I need to start working on cardio and muscles. Basically everything. But mainly cardio because I would like to do good in Ultimate.

I feel like the apartment is crumbling. There is less communication than there was. I feel like it is just 4 people living together and not 4 friends. Maybe I am just looking at it in a different light. It wouldn't be the first. I will somehow try to stop this. I shall make food for everybody tomorrow. I feel like that should help. I am disappointed in the fact that my advice or comments fall on deaf ears. Less appreciated. But I am strong and I know that that is not the case. And even if that is, I know how to deal with it. I came from a family that hardly paid attention to me and still doesn't, unless there is a problem. I am more independent that I could even imagine and sometimes I surprise myself.

I made a 62 on my Economics test.....again. I hate that class so bad. Everything just flies over my head. It is nothing but theories and no hardcore facts and figures. All just depends. It is so hard to grasp my head around that but I will still try as hard as I can on this last test. I need, no fuck that, I NEEEEEEEED to pass this class. It will hold me back if I do not. I know I can do it. I know I can. This semester is so crappy. Hopefully next semester will be better. I am taking Operations Management, and I heard that it is another math course basically and I am so excited. I think I should be a math teacher. I have always loved math and will always love math. I mean shit, it makes life so much easier.

So I want to ask somebody out but I am scared of their response. I will ask anyway, because if I am not living with my heart on my sleeves there is no reason to even be human and no reason to exist. I sometimes wish people could be more accepting of the feelings they have and to be more mature. I know it is a lot to ask for but I mean hey, It will help everybody if one were better in tuned with emotions and verbal communication. Still looking for that someone I guess, maybe I should stop looking because everything seems to find you when you are not looking for it.

The Hockey game I went to was good. A fucking FCA member was cockblocking the whole time. Damnit. I know you can want any poonani till you are married but that doesn't mean I want to wait with you. SHIT. I mean can't you let a nigga get his dick wet. Hahahahhaahhahahahaha. OH man I is trill. No but true story. I think I should be the sequel to Hyperbole and a Half. I say that sounds good.

I shall talk to you later when I have more time. I am at work also and it is fucking cold outside. I saw my breath, so that means that it is WINTER officially. HELL YES. Alright later niggas.

One of the New Posts

So I am sitting here at Ragsdale doing nothing but writing and waiting for the damn Hockey excursion to hurry and take place. I am excited to be going, even though none of my friends are going. I feel like that is an accomplishment, I am being more independent and I did not even think about not going for that reason. I thought about it because I have a test and 2 presentations due tomorrow, but I decided that I should have some me time. Although there has been a lot of that lately. I completed my 20 in 4 challenge and it was intense. Also I have been more selfish, which is not a good thing but I am forced to do so because nobody else knows the amount of energy I put into something for everybody to only get a 'thanks'. I do appreciate when you appreciate but I would also like some action. I know actions speak louder than words and it goes a long way with me. I would also like it for next semester to hurry da fuck up and get here because I do not want to be in these damn classes anymore it is just wasting my time when all I do is learn nothing in the class that I am supposed to be learning something in. Anyways, I have taken up another interest in life and she has a name that begins with the letter R. I want to pursue and make something happen with it because I know there is a connection. Failblog.org is the best site. I visit it all the time. There is some days where I do not go to it because I like finding new things posted. I need to go and actually check it out right now because I am craving for it. See you later fools.

Time

Some time has passed since I have written but I assure you I will write as soon as I have more time to write. 18 hours is such a workload and I have not been up to my game this semester so next semester, with another 18 hour workload, I will manage better. I shall let you know what is happening soon. I shall keep a running list of what is going on so I can have an extra long blog that shall need to be split up like the Harry Potter movie. Later people.